"Our Little Rosebud"

The title of this post is a tough one for me, as this is what I pictured myself calling our sweet little Rose. Today, Memorial Day it's hard to even imagine we lost our child. It's definitely something I never pictured myself going through, and now here we are remembering our precious baby and the short time she was with us.

The reality of losing Rose has really been hitting me hard lately. I really miss her a lot and find myself dealing with a lot of guilt. I feel really guilty if I ever feel a little overwhelmed with the kid's because I would do anything just to be a little busier with 6 kids.

Had I known we were going to lose our precious baby I think I would of done my best to get past the pain, and get down to see our little girl. Instead I was laying in a hospital bed, doped up on pain killers recovering from a c-section. I wish I could remember my time with her more, but again the pain med's. I wish I could hold her just once more but I only got that chance once as our little girl left my arms, and went into the arms of Jesus.

This is what I take my comfort in. Rose's little eyes were still fused when she was born, and when she opened them for the first time she looked into the eyes of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ!!!!!


So if you get a chance today please pray for me and my family as we remember Rose not only today but everyday. Please pray that we will feel God's peace on our lives as we continue to adjust to our loss.

We love you all,
Tami

Tagged

Well I've been tagged by Shann , so here we go.......

What I was doing 10 years ago?
.....Well Dan and I were dating and talking marriage,so I was head over heals for my man!!!

Five things on my to do list for today?
1.....a mountain of laundry
2.....make a strawberry pie,Yum!
3.....clean the house
4.....balance the check book
5.....did i mention laundry!

Things I would do if I were a billionaire?
.......buy Dan a new vehicle of choice
.......buy a house with a bathroom for everyone(no more interruptions the minute you get in the bath)
.......a maid to clean all those bathrooms(hey she could also do the laundry!)
.......support missions of some sort
.......Like Shann said, I would also adopt

Three of my bad habits.......
......being late(I've always been late and now I have 5 kids!!!!)
......waiting till the last minute to do things
......i don't always finish what I start(back to the laundry thing, I should just catch up)

Five jobs I've had......
......Veldheer Tulip Gardens
......dishwasher at Pizza Ranch
......waitress at Noel Restaurant
......travel agent at MTA Travel
......Walters Gardens

Five people I tag......Dan,Ben,and anyone else reading this blog!!!!